What I feel
with what I want
What I should say
with what I will say
Who I was, who I imagine I am, who I wish to be
with what others experience of me, what is said of me, or perceived...
My want to defend and offend and lash out
with the person I want to be who walks a higher road
The strength I have
with the wanting to be vulnerable
The wish to be loved
with the fear to open to that love
The wish to love
with the fear of rejection
The desire to take risks and step out
with the perceived stability of the status quo
What I know and have learned
with the vast amount of which I am in ignorance
People who said they loved me, were "here" for me... who cared
with the fact that they lied, betrayed, disappeared, and who really don't give a shit...
