Monday, October 8, 2018

Birthday


So very different...
This year, than last.
I'm standing alone, facing the year ahead.
Before, I had what I thought was a strong hand in mine as we walked into the future...
Together.

No more together.
Alone.

Funny how much difference a year makes.
My children's arms are linked with mine, but my hand is empty.
No strong hand grasping mine.
Yet, it is open. 
It is strong.

I have such wonderful memories...
Built on sand.
But they were wonderful.

The pain is birthing the new.

Birth ... day








Wednesday, August 29, 2018

How to Reconcile?


How to reconcile?
What I feel
with what I want
What I should say
with what I will say
Who I was, who I imagine I am, who I wish to be
with what others experience of me, what is said of me, or perceived...
My want to defend and offend and lash out
with the person I want to be who walks a higher road
The strength I have
with the wanting to be vulnerable
The wish to be loved
with the fear to open to that love
The wish to love
with the fear of rejection
The desire to take risks and step out
with the perceived stability of the status quo
What I know and have learned
with the vast amount of which I am in ignorance
People who said they loved me, were "here" for me... who cared
with the fact that they lied, betrayed, disappeared, and who really don't give a shit...

Monday, June 4, 2018

Shatter the Glass


Glass can be a wall.
It can separate and divide.
It can keep one in, and the world out.
The air inside can be stifling.
The environment inside can be artificial.
Unreal.

Through glass, one can see out.
Others may be allowed to see in.
However, glass can alter an image.
If the glass is warped, the image is not true.
If the glass is dirty, the truth is muddied.
If the glass is fogged up, the truth is blurred.
If the glass is tinted, the truth is shadowed.
Glass can magnify sunlight and engulf the subject of its focus in flame.

Find beauty in brokenness.
Let go of fear and find your life!
Let the fresh air in.
And the stale air out.
Let the light shine in.
and your light shine out.

Shatter the glass.



Friday, June 1, 2018

Just Be


Being quiet.
Being open.
Being aware.
Being receptive.
Being expressive.
Being true.
Being vulnerable.
Being trusting.
Being raw.
Being respectful.
Being passionate.
Being fun.
Being resilient.
Being flawed.
Being confident.
Being kind.
Being present.
Being now.
Being alone.
Being whole.
Being healed.
Being happy.
Being alive.
Being still.
Being appreciative.

Being.

Friday, May 25, 2018

Selfie


Selfie
Focus
It's all about the Source, focusing on beautiful faith
The assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen
Promises of life, and life more abundant
Love, joy, peace
Laughter
Cheerful countenance reflecting a merry heart
Good medicine
Hope
Health
New songs in a fresh heart
Open
Receptive
Looking up
Smiling

Tuesday, May 22, 2018

Live Whole


“Do not love half lovers
Do not entertain half friends
Do not indulge in works of the half talented
Do not live half a life
and do not die a half death
If you choose silence, then be silent
When you speak, do so until you are finished
Do not silence yourself to say something
And do not speak to be silent
If you accept, then express it bluntly
Do not mask it
If you refuse then be clear about it
for an ambiguous refusal is but a weak acceptance
Do not accept half a solution
Do not believe half truths
Do not dream half a dream
Do not fantasize about half hopes
Half a drink will not quench your thirst
Half a meal will not satiate your hunger
Half the way will get you no where
Half an idea will bear you no results
Your other half is not the one you love
It is you in another time yet in the same space
It is you when you are not
Half a life is a life you didn't live,
A word you have not said
A smile you postponed
A love you have not had
A friendship you did not know
To reach and not arrive
Work and not work
Attend only to be absent
What makes you a stranger to them closest to you
and they strangers to you
The half is a mere moment of inability
but you are able for you are not half a being
You are a whole that exists to live a life
not half a life”
― Kahlil Gibran

Wednesday, May 16, 2018

Hope Floats


Embracing the now, excited for then...

Letting go of what was.

Just me.

Here.